Even When [Still Searching]

image Within minutes of each other, two texts came through to my phone just as I was sitting down to job search during the most inspirational time of the day: NAP THIRTY.

All this toddler chasing has me crawling on hands and knees to my comfy chair for the ever-needed and very much required hour of power.

Wardrobe boxes were staring me down but I just could not.

Cup of coffee number two in hand and eyes glazed over (because 6:30 a.m. wake up call) I took a deep breath.

I had a momentary celebration just as our realtor gave us the news that our home would go back on the market just in case our buyer couldn't get his loan.

Enter all the heart palpitations that come with the thought of getting our upside down home back into show worthy style. Something inside of me found my inner tiger and I was immediately up for the challenge.

But why God?

I love the passage in Romans that talks openly about patience and trust.

"We Continue to shout our praise even when we're hemmed in with troubles, because we know how troubles can develop passionate patience in us, and how that patience in turn forges the tempered steel of virtue, keeping us alert for whatever God will do next." Romans 5:3-4 MSG

So much passionate patience growing over here. It's worth the trouble, really.

Does this ever happen to you? The moment God trusts you with a setback, He reveals a fresh possibility?

The next text message followed quickly from Kris saying that our next job lead was reviewing his submission and would be scheduling interviews soon.

We may or may not be considered, I have no clue - but I do know that we needed that forward motion and that Jesus continues to carry us in all the crazy.

Speaking of crazy, allow me to give you a screen-shot into our lives...

Boxes everywhere.

Suitcases for 7 packed.

Closets gutted.

Beds taken down.

Mattresses on floors.

Homeschool books sorted for fall (cause who knows where on earth we will be).

Weekend long yard sale complete.

Conversations about all the "what ifs".

Updating our kids because they are not just along for the ride.

The guys have been working hardcore over here shuttling our life back and forth to storage while I keep the toddler playing in water and eating all forms of snacks.

Stuff is upside down and every where. But you know what? I'm all in. We are all in.

When you say "yes" to the spirit...you say "yes" to an adventure that you could not possibly map out. It's just the most out of control feeling to not know anything!

The questions keep coming...

"Where are you moving?"

"Why are you moving?"

"When are you leaving?"

"Did you find a job?"

It's so hard and so right all at the same time!

Those conversations don't go very far when the answers to all the questions are "We have no idea! But we know God is leading us into something new somewhere else."

After chasing down a lead in Colorado for the past two months, it all came to a close on Memorial Day. God spoke through it all like He always does and I will post about that later.

Kris continues to finish out his time at church strong and with his whole heart while trying to find the next landing spot. Not easy peasy.

I am doing my best to keep life rollin on the home front while trying to show our kids how to walk by faith...like completely. All while cooking, cleaning, keeping up with their summer schedules, and keeping a toddler happy, fed, and out of danger!

I get to watch Jesus develop the trust of my kids, expand their understanding of this call to ministry, and mature their hearts to what is next.

I. Would. Never. Trade. These. Days.

It feels wrong to complain that things aren't moving quicker when you believe in a God who sovereignly weaves all things for His purpose.

For now we are pushing forward. Eyes are wide and hope is rebuilding as we search for other positions. Join us while we wait...holding onto the next verse in the passage:

"In alert expectancy such as this, we're never left feeling short-changed. Quite the contrary-we can't round-up enough containers to hold everything God generously pours into our lives through the Holy Spirit!" Rom 5:5 MSG




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